This week has been one of the worst weeks of my life, not exaggerating by any means.
Monday morning, I signed onto Facebook. My sister's status was something along the lines of "Not sure how I'll get through the day. RIP Caleb, I love you and miss you!" Now, Caleb is my 16 yr old nephew's name, so I clicked over to his page and it's full of "RIP" messages. Call my mom immediately and ask her what is going on, to which she responds, "Deana (ex-SIL) called me at 6:30 this morning (only an hour earlier) and Caleb committed suicide last night, they found him at 3am, hanging in his room." :o
I'm still, 4 days later, trying to wrap my mind around what happened, as is the majority of my family. I've dealt with death before but that's been grandparents that have passed due to old age, you almost expect that. Dealing with someone passing away due to suicide is a whole other situation and is 100 times harder to deal with.
We're all dealing with our own regrets of time not spent with him, not reaching out to him when we noticed he was sad the past few weeks, all of the should of, would of, could of's. We all knew he was kinda sad due to a breakup with his girlfriend, but nobody realized he was taking it so hard and that combined with some other situations going on, were too much for him to bear.
So this weekend, we will bury a young man who's life ended far too soon. He was so full of potential, so smart, so talented, and had so much going for him.
This weekend will be the end to an extremely hard week for my family and hopefully after the funeral, we will all be able to begin dealing with our grief and try to move forward from here.
I know that good thoughts, prayers, and vibes all definitely help through bad situations. So if it's not too much to ask, could you please keep my family in your thoughts as we go through this weekend? It's going to be a hard day on Saturday and we could use all the help we could get in getting through this time.